__________`` sometimes i wonder about you; * and wonder if you ever think about me. `` ____

`` its my lifee. [#] `-

Sunday, March 26, 2006

i used to be v concerned abt how others will feel or think abt me or the things i do. and over time, i became wat they wanted me to be. i lived for others, and not myself. but now, as i want to start living for myself again, i've been mistaken tat i've changed. i haven't. i really haven't.

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
10:20 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Saturday, March 25, 2006

hao lei. zhen de lei le.

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
8:23 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Sunday, March 12, 2006

why hide everything behind that smile? u appear to be happy, but deep inside, u are not. the problems and worries u hv, makes tat smile vanish as soon as it appears, replacin it with a frown.

why hold back those emotions and feelings u hv? u appear to be strong, but how long can those walls u build withstand the pressure buildin inside u? say wat u want, do wat u want to do, be the person u r, and not the person u wish pple to c. love. hate. cry. laugh.

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
3:01 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Thursday, March 09, 2006

uncle yeo is a laughin joke. he is the chief taxi driver, in charge of dispatchin other drivers to diff pick up points to send starbucks partners home. so every night, he'll start callin up drivers, askin where they are, and dispatchin accordingly.

today, uncle yeo picked dean and i up cos it was still early. when we were gettin in, a bus appeared behind. the taxi was blockin the way. then uncle yeo started his string of hokkien vulgarities.. he said them so comically! shadn't write them down.

he parked at the bus stop in front and startin goin thru his list. then he called up this driver called john. from wat i hear, uncle yeo had asked him to go to valley pt at 11.30pm to pick pple up. and this john was actually waitin at holland village all the while! then uncle yeo started shoutin. really shoutin.. super oblivious of us. then his whole body will jerk and hands, legs moving vigourously. luckily he's wearin safety belt to hold him down.. then he turned to dean and said 'brother, i can vomit blood. vomit blood. i tell him go valley pt at 11.30, he waitin at holland village. now wat time already? then he still can f**k me cos he wouldn't get paid. @$#(&#($*&#(%^# if i hv a gun, i will shoot him. shoot him and go jail nvm. but i no gun. haiz, i go resign' we were laughin our head out, plus he's speakin in broken eng.

when we reached orchard buildin for transit, he gave permission for those who wanna go smoke. when nobody moved, he said ' wah, all so gd ar' then gave that cynical laughter (super like the way uncle tong laughs)

after tat he directed another partner and me to a taxi. the girl asked him whether there will be another transit. he said no. then she asked ' u sure?' . then uncle yeo impatiently said ' go home la. go home la' and shooed us off..

pray everytime i'll get him then at least not tat boring. reached home at 1.30am! so happy! cos normally ard 2am.. plus today i finished closin by 12.30am... which was wat dean expected of me. =p and i brought back home egg petite! fav! and verona tiramisu.. the tiramisu has a v strong alcohol taste! luxury sia...

wee! tml is an off day! finally can go home! but fri, i'll prob be meetin ratthaphong! hee... gotta slp now!

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
2:02 AM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Saturday, March 04, 2006

occupational friendships: pple who enter ur life and make u think tat u guys are the bestest of frens or at least.. gd frens.. then when both of u part ways, the friendship is lost.

met a fren today. we were walkin towards each other.. some how, i felt smth is missing.

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
5:47 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Friday, March 03, 2006

wed... i wasn't v nervous, surprisingly.. left at 1.30pm when the rest left at 12.30pm.. took my own sweet time.. aud and my bro got on the trn at tampines.. we slacked ard at white sands while the 3 and 4 distinctions holders get their results.. after which we left for sch.. got my bro to look at result slip cos i didn't dared to.. at least my bro can give me a rough gauge of how i faired...my bro said i did well. i started gettin nervous, hands shakin as i signed the papers.. then i looked at my results.. i was so happy!.. but then.... i became v sad... gp D7! nv ever before i get a D7.. thank goodness i got A A C.. or else i think i'm doomed! goin to apply mathematical sci, my dream course.

yest was the first official day workin at starbucks! kan chiong sia... did pos (cashier). i screwed up once! over charge a partner.. cos i gave her the 20% discount, but charged her the full amt on the nets machine.. dean eyes were like bulgin out.. lol... so much things to do for closing.. nicky seng came over to say hi.. scared dean when he 'wanted' to complain cos i wasn't given a break to chat with nicky. haha.. ended work like 12 plus and waited for the darn taxi until 1plus... some more there was a transit! the cab took zilah and i to somewhere in orchard, where zilah was sent home first cos the cab to her area was there.. i had to stand alone, lookin stupid at a carpark. then the head taxi cabbie took me on his cab and sent me to paragon, where i had to changed to another taxi! tian...! after tat, waited for another partner, went to another place to fetch someone else, before finally on the journey home.. got home ard 2am!

slpt for 4 hrs only! gee but, overall, i feel fine.... only the end of the day, i felt drained.. too bad i didn't bring my 3-in-1 coffee.. gonna bathe and slp soon! tml i'll hv to wake at 5plus.. need all the energy for the long day! ciaoz.

i think i've finally starting to grow up.

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
8:10 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*