__________`` sometimes i wonder about you; * and wonder if you ever think about me. `` ____

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Sunday, February 26, 2006

yeah! bro is accompanying me to take results! hee.. he's skippin his class for me! so happy.. haha.. with him ard, not tat scared le..

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
10:07 AM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Saturday, February 25, 2006

had starbucks store meetin today.. toot man... supposed to start at 10am.. then was postponed to 11am at the last min.. damn.. could hv had one more hr of slp... draggy meetin though.. talk abt alot operation stuff. oh yeah, gonna hv store outin on the 18th of march at sentosa! cool! haha but weird though.. me kinda blacklisted cos i stepped into behind the bar twice without bein in proper attire.. one more time i'll hv to do some corrective thingy. shit!

after meetin, took 14 down to kiliney to meet li hui.. so nostalgic! goin down the highway passed kallang river, there was barely any boats there.. the waters were so so calm! and the sdba is like half filled.. noticed some changes along the way to siglap.. haven't taken this bus for ages!

had lunch there, then went over to starbucks to chill.. cos kiliney kinda hot.. then li hui suggested we go walk walk.. then i was thinkin siglap like no place to walk.. so i said we walked to tms.. since we were sayin we haven't been there for quite some time.. haha so we two crazy crazy walk under tat hot brazing sun towards tms... when we reached lucky heights, we decided to walk to bedok since it's quite near.. haha.. we didn't need 1 hr to travel from siglap to bedok! parted at bedok, anw i'll be seein her on wed again.

supposed to hv tuition, but i cancelled it last min... was at tampines mrt station by then... when i walked out of hse, my right eye was super in pain. and kept tearing.. only after a long long consideration did i turn back and headed home... so paiseh, i changed tuition so last min.. now my eye still a bit pain.. sian.. think i'm not goin to wear contacts for some time..

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
8:13 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Thursday, February 23, 2006

i've passed my bar test after so so long! had to make 10 drinks while communitatin with the 'customer', who is my store manger.. didn't talked much cos shy ar.. weird to talk to someone standin behind you. the theory paper was ok.... if u didn't ans the qns correctly, the sotre manger wil just ask u to correct until u get full marks... so yup.. nxt week i'll officially start work! wee!

ar... diners' gettin freakin boring.. can't stand the stonin! and i dun learn anything! why agnes nv teach me to ans phone so i can do my tuition stuff insidE?? why why? everybody know how except me... at the counter, i can't do any tuition work cos it's super inconvenient... super sian! feel like takin leave, but i'll hv to go w/o the $50... can't believe i'm actually been paid to stone.. but stonin seriously sucks!!

today kanna slam though.. after which got headache..

sarah straightened my hair yest.. and i quite like the look.. so i think i'll go rebond or straighten the hair.. wat's the difference????? gotta go find out.. oh man.. biggest change of my life! haha

results comin out soon.. i'm afraid. but wat to do? think i'll be goin mathematical sci. it's the only course that interests me.. hopefully i can go in. hopefully.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzz time! oh yeah, my shift manager, suhada, said i speak like ah lian! stunned! shocked! surprised! oh another thing, starting to collect stamps now.. anybody out there w stamps can pass to me?? thx! ciao!

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
12:34 AM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Friday, February 17, 2006

guess the stuff that i wrote on my blog doesn't really get through to pple so y do i blog?

as my fren has mentioned, it's sucks not sayin the things u want. and when u do, u piss pple off. then u wonder y u even bother sayin anything? at least, tat's how i feel... and in the end, i'm the one who gets pissed cos nobody's listening and they end up doin the exact thing tat i dun wanna see happening.

y can't pple hv a mind of their own? everything also anything or see how or see whether so and so agree? like if u want smth, means u want smth.. it's a yes or no qn.. 'if so and so nv go, then i don't wanna go.' tat's so typical of ans la... or 'go with flow... or depend on my mood'.. and i dun understand, y pple can travel all the way to town to shop, but not to anywhere nearer to hv dinner.. like wat the toot?

pple are selfish. naturally. instinctly.

i've got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
hand full of anger, held in my chest
you'll nv forget the blood sweat and tears
uphill stuggle over years,
the fear and thrash talkin and the pple it was to
and the pple who started it just like YOU

i've tried like you
to do everything you wanted too
this is the last time
i'll take the blame for the sake of being with YOU

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
1:00 AM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Sunday, February 12, 2006

think i dun wanna blog for awhile.

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
12:10 AM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Saturday, February 11, 2006

my theory is if go overseas, must live in an above ave hotel and take a reasonable plane.. i go taiwan, my uncle's room's toilet got clotted... i go hong kong, heater no use sia. off air con also bloody cold. then bath tub will take super long to empty out water... the room also quite small.. so ya lor, dun wan such things to happen.. esp since i'm goin to thailand. dunno la, but i'm like the only one who is willing to pay that extra money. dun wan to end up in a room with the shower being faulty or smth... u get wat u are willing to pay.

been feeling shitty recently. think too tired le. on e way to work everyday, i'll feel super giddy and horrible. walk abit heart also beat v fast. so weak sia.. then hving sudden heart contractions these few days.. super sharp pain. and then yest, had this super cold feelin along my throat area.. super weirded...

my bro's every emotion affects me directly.. if he feel sian, i'll feel sian too.. if he feel happy, i'll be happy too.. if he sad, i get sad too.. if he cry.. i cry.. today his o level results came out, he didn't do as well as he wished he had.. and well, he cried.. then i broke down after hangin up his call.. feel so lousy abt myself cos i couldn't be there for him at night. had starbucks trning till 10pm.. i asked him to wait for me to talk but by the time i came home, he goin to slp le. i super sad cos i nv talk to him and he actually was waitin for me to come home.. make me kinda regret takin up the starbucks job.. and tml i'm like busy from mornin to night.... shitty man..

can't slp sia, still hv to prepare for tuition tml.. either dun slp now or wake up early tml.. omg.. somebody give me strength!

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
12:10 AM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Thursday, February 09, 2006

ImPortAnt FaCts AbT mE:

1. i looked super sian when i'm tired. try not to talk to me. dun ask me if i'm alright. i am.

2. i value puntuality. it makes no sense for me to get ready earlier and be on time, just to wait for others. and if u r gonna be late, pls keep me informed out of courtesy instead of me askin where r u.

3. i like to keep things to myself. tat's just the way i am. sayin them out will only invite unwanted trouble.

4. i don't like things to get procrasinated and end up hving to rush through things. the later things get pushed back, the nearer it gets to deadline, the more irritated i'll be.

5. if u send me a sms, i'll definitely reply it asap. therefore, i appreciate if pple will at least make an effort to reply my messages.

6. i'm practical.

7. i walk alone.

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
8:55 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Sunday, February 05, 2006

went out with hi5 today to marina sq to shop.. we spent like 6hrs there! walkin ard back and forth in search of clothes.. i bought one top from samuel and kevin (or is it keith?) it's a t-shirt.. lolx i told eve i'm not goin for t-shirts but in the end also buy one.. haha. cannot help it, t-shirts and racer-backs make my day!

after e tirin shoppin, we went to my place for steamboat! wee! it's the usual tom yam steamboat cos they refused to change soup base. oh well.. dinner was fun! haha and evil monster ng keep bullyin my brother.. so poor thing.. then auntie boon keep givin my brother all the veg.. lolx.. so ke lian.. then my bro had to play piano for them .. free labour sia.. and boon keep askin him to replay the chorus of canon in d in a v slow manner.. haha

after dinner, dunno why we started talkin abt goin thailand.. suddenly, we were really plannin to go there! chose the dates and started to plan who to ask.. then started callin pple up.. it's like finally our long procrastinated dream is really comin true! after all the excitement, we started to think realistic and wondered if our parents will allow.. cos thailand ain't really a safe place... but we decided to go on a tour.. so ya.. more safe?

then i just called sup.. can't believe i actually called him! i suggested to the girls tat he could be our translator and bodyguard for us in thailand.. at least we wouldn't get cheated or bullied.. he picked up the phone in like one ring, i was quite surprised cos didn't expect the call to be connected so fast.. so i told him our plan.. he said he's havin his hols then so he can like accompany us ard.. even offered us to stay at his family's spare condo in the city.. but there's no bed there, only soft carpet.. haha. chio.. we chatted a bit.. he told me he went jet skiing the whole day! super rich kid.. sg$40 per hr.. then i realised he was cyclin while talkin to me.. cos he's background was kinda noisy... the sound was familiar, but i couldn't rmb wat is it.. until he told me he was cycling... then i rmb the sound is caused when cyclin over rocky (uneven) ground... was glad i called him. =P

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11:52 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Saturday, February 04, 2006

chinese new yr is a bore... totally zero ambience.. my bigger family didn't even hv steamboat la! used to hv it when my grandma still stayed at her old hse.. but after she moved, every smaller family takes turn to host reunion dinner.. and that's when the steamboat thingy stopped.. it's like totally sucky.. they just cooked up some dishes and invite everybody there.. there's no diff from any other major family gathering.. poof!

and on cny eve, not all went to my grandma house! it's just like a normal sat gatherin at my grandma's place.. oh my tian.. i was totally -.-" . and this yr the adults aren't the one playin cards. it's us younger generation! it's so wrong! they used to play whole night, with money, at my grandma's old place.. while the kids entertain themselves. now they are all comfortable with chattin and watchin us play, w/o money.

went to ms seah's hse alone cos it's kinda a last min thing for me... too bad couldn't stay till the canoeists came as i had to fly to my cousin's hse.

i'm feelin quite groggy now.. feel like puking.. tian.. did i slp too much?

anw, thurs was such a horrible day... was left alone at the counter durin lunch.. kanna slammed.. one c/m came and i went to ask kris for help.. there's only kris, joyce and salinah at the back.. then i heard the bell ring, n quickly ran out. attended to another c/m... ran back to wait for kris's ans.. another c/m came and i got salinah to help me.. then e phone ring.. after which i explained stuff to e third c/m.. there's like some misunderstandin, then he started shoutin at me! i was totally stun... salinah came out and helped me.. actually e c/m only don't understand e terms... then had to go help 1st c/m to photocopy smth. i was totally embarrassed to be shouted at in front of others.. after the commotion, i sat there, dazed. wanted to go take a break behind also cannot.. shitty day.

went to kantina (?) to eat with hi 5.. it's the place where boon work.. we were taken up to the 2nd floor where we were the only custs there.. feels weirded to hv fellow hi5 member to serve us.. e food there v ex.. but nice.. and nice supervisor gave us discount, free drinks and free ice-cream! hee... oh ya, wanna complain abt the waitress servin us sia... eat and drink our food while on duty.. tsk tsk.. lolx..

haven't been goin to starbucks for lessons for quite some time.. lela and hawa have been hvin their lessons though cos they could work durin cny.. then i think they want them to hv their bar test asap cos we are kinda short-handed.. dean said he gonna confirm my schedule nxt wk on thurs! but he didn't.. so sad... and think lela's takin her bar test tml.. feel so left out...

gotta go, feelin quite horrible now. later still hv tuition and haven't prepare the qns to give her do... feel like askin for pay rise.

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
12:23 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*