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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

back from my hcl annual chalet. this yr we held it at east coast cos 2 yrs at downtown east quite sian.... 15 out of 16 pple turn up for the bbq.. which is so rare! haha but chen lao didn't come cos she went overseas. nobody buy vodka for us!!

kim's dad send yong seng, lihui, kim and i to the chalet along with all the food and nessitites.. jun jie and yong ann had already reached there at 1.30pm when we were supposed to gather at 2.30pm.. quite dumb haha.. but luckily we were early too.. chalet no is D07.. lousy! the door sux... can't lock it up

the lady who rented us the bbq equip got personality sia! she wore those big big specs, tied her hair... when she asked us if we want this or that, she looked down and keep writin on the receipt, not lookin at us once! here's how it goes:
'wat size (of the bbq pit) u want?'
'wat are the sizes?'
*she pointed to the right w/o lookin up*
'we take the large one'
'do u need mesh?'
'yes'
'fire starter?'
'no'
.
.
.
'unit no?'
all these while she nv look up at us lor! got an attitude sia.. haha .. so funny

that junjie didn't bring toilet roll! so many pple 2 rolls of toilet paper where got enuf.. then he say just don't go shit can le when i scolded him.. in the end he go shit twice lor! wah.. use up all our toilet papers.. by the third day, we had to use servettes.. haha. .that toot!

rented mahjong too! helped lihui with the bbq food.. then we played mahjong till the rest came..
started fire ard 5.30pm.. this yr's fire power sia! last yr we tried to start the fire for hrs but cannot (drizzlin plus lousy charcoal). v soon the charcoal was ready.. we started bbq-ing.. but this yr.. dunno y.. everything seemed so little.. bbq awhile no more food le.. so sad... i made toast bread with cheese on top. yummy!

played mahjong.. andy came. he helped us buy vodka.. cos he cycle from his hse... for us to buy the 7-11 so far away.. then he stayed, ate some, roast marshmallow, played mahjong and mixed with the guys.. yup..

ber, mq, nat left.... then that dumb teo and meiyin came. they were at their class bbq at james' house.. they not v smart leh.. james hse near lucky view there got bus to east coast but they took bus to bedok interchange then come.. toot! haha they reached like 11 plus..

sian. nxt week i can't watch project runway! grr! design swim suit sia... the rest of the night was spent playin mahjong... slpt on stairs . butt damn pain.!

nxt day, went to roller blade with tricia, en, meiyin, mag and weiliang.. mag, meiyin and i nv roller blade before! haha... fell a few times.. haha... we practised at the beginner's corner. so angry with all the pros keep doin their stunts there.. pple just startin to learn they keep goin at fast speed ard.. block our way.. it's a beginner's corner! after some time, we were ready to take the road! we roller bladed all the way to our chalet and back! haha.. had difficulties with the humps at first.. keep fallin. haha..

then... played mahjong then went for supper... at mac's and gelare.. then rained! so suay.. we were trapped! we went to the 'hook on steamboat' stall cos got shelter.. we were plannin to get back to the chalet. the stall owner asked where we were goin and offered to shelter us... he tot we goin to the underpass.. but chalet too far le.. so he allowed us to sit at the table... then after awhile .. seems like rain bigger.. he lend us two umbrellas for the 4 of us (kim, tricia, meiyin and i).. so nice hor!!! we just hv to return the nxt day (which is today)

spent the night mahjong-ing but everybody v tired le... went to hv a nap.. jun jie went to slp.. leavin yong ann, weiliang, tricia and meiyin playin.. in the end we didn't slp.. keep talkin abt sec sch and jc.. haha.. until i fell aslp.. woke up ard 3plus.. found tricia starin at the tv and meiyin sleepin on floor.. meiyin went up.. tricia said the door couldn't be locked.. i tried also cannot. so we tried to stay awake.. but it wasn't workin cos we keep dozin off. in the end tried to lock that dumb door again then can liao... went up to slp

tricia shared bed with meiyin.. i shared with weiliang.. weiliang kept pushin me to the corner! and takin away my share of the blanket.. after awhile, i got up and went to jun jie's bed.. and asked him to share w me.. he got up and went toilet.. so i slpt liao.. i woke up to find him sleepin downstairs on the floor.. 7plus or 8plus le..

he told me i took most of the blanket.. the side of the room where our bed was was extremely cold! cos aircon blowin down.. so he was freezin.... he didn't want to wake me up so he went downstairs to slp..

left chalet ard 9 plus.. reached home and started packin my luggage.. haha.. goin to play awhile then slp le!

goin hk tml.. SQ862. haha. flight's ard 11am.. dunno the itinary yet.. my mum too busy dun wanna tell me.. lala

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11:57 AM

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Sunday, November 27, 2005

ms seah's weddin yest... first time attendin to a church weddin.. cool! great to hang out with trish they all.

the darn router doesn't want to work! sickenin....! i'm an IT idiot.. pls get that darn thing done soon!

*if your world doesn't allow you to dream, move to one that you can*

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5:16 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Friday, November 25, 2005

*edited version*

A's over! but i dun feel a thing..

dyed my hair... but it doesn't look as brown as wat u see below.. lol in fact, when u see me, u'll not even noticed that i dyed my hair.. so sad hor... sobx.. think i'll go do diy dye again... haha :P prob get killed by my mum.

went out w tricia, en, boon, esther and wan yuan to ps to find ms seah's weddin gift... ended up w a 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle! it's pooh, tiger, piglet, eeyore, a kangaroo and a yellow rabbit... haha it's nice...! so we hurried over to my hse to fix it... by e time we reach ard 4plus le! esther and en went to tampines to get a card while the rest came first...

i fixed piglet! haha then wan yuan did border, tricia... did the flowers... esther and en did tiger and pooh.. haha.. so fun! then andy came along later after his sch... fix, fix, fix.... then ard 7pm we had dinner.. wan yuan left to go home zzzz.... haha dinner at my hse! hmm... haha.

after dinner, we only left with the horrible sky! blue blue blue and more blue!!! luckily there was diff shades.... wah do the sky take us like... 2hrs? haha. cos we were just blindly tryin every piece... then andy applied the glue.. luckily he's ard.. cos the 5 of us hv no experience in this.. lala.. ard.. 9 plus 10.. they left le..

tml esther comin in the mornin to help puttin the puzzle in the frame. meetin the rest at 9am... wee! oh! the card that they buy has sound! it'll play the weddin song when opened! dang dang dang dang, dang dang dang dang! haha so cool..

anw, last week.. me and bro said the same things. this time freakier! sq's plane has 3 pple at the corner seats instead of the normal 2. we hv 6 pple, includin my cousin... so my mum booked 2 corner rows... i was sayin that i'll take the front corner-most seat while my bro will hv the one behind me. apparently nobody heard it.. then mins later, my bro said exactly the same thing! in the same order too! shockin!

i'm disappointed w my bro. upset.

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10:34 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

after bio p3 yest, i chiong to orchard to meet bro for work... drizzlin... was stationed outside lido, giving out packets of tissue promoting the movie 'prime' starrin uma turner... toink. nv heard pple promote movie in e form of tissue .. like a bit desperate for viewers... anw, was givin 3 boxes... each containin abt 800? wanted to take note of how many, but lost count and patience.

outside lido there were two malay guys tryin to get pple to donate $10 for the poor orphans in the world (smth like tat)... in the end, i guess they got bored and started helpin me! so nice hor! some more, they started fillin the bag to it's max with tissue .. then they walked round orchard, promotin their charity thingy while givin out tissue papers. luckily got them or else i wouldn't be done so fast...

tricia, en and esther came ard 3pm. i still hv like a boxful! then they started helpin me.... wah... so many pple help... then v fast finish le.... went to find my bro, who's at tangs... threw away the cardboard boxes, and went mac to eat.

then we started intensive shoppin! wee! we looked for clothes to wear to ms seah's weddin, ms seah's weddin present and their prom gowns... mostly they tried and i look cos i'm not goin prom, plus i quite shag... cos stand for like 4hrs straight.. wah.. at phuturelondon, trish give me a big surprise sia.. nv knew she so darin until she choose those gowns to wear... power!!

finally at far east, i tried this purple top that trish choose for me.. haha i too lazy to look at anythin le.. quite nice leh.. hm. i went to this shop just to look at jeans... then the aunty so enthu keep tryin to sell me the jeans.. brought diff pairs of jeans for me to try leh! in the end i didn't buy on the spot and she kinda made me promise i'll come back later...

went to this shop to look at gowns... the shop sells gown that are one-of-the-kind.. so can be rest ensured that nobody wear the same thing on that night.. then the 3 of them started tryin.. en bought this pink dress.. think it's quite nice.. there's this turqoise tube that esther wore that i think is not bad... trish kinda like this white one, cos it's cuttin is unique.. but it's too plain.

anw, i bought the jeans anw.. haha.. i only have one pair of jeans ma... the rest either cannot wear or spoilt.. how to go hk like tat? $35... ok la.. lol...

at first we were sayin that we hv dinner at pasta.. by the time we r done, it's 10 plus! wow! haha.. then then!!! guess wat?? when we at mrt, esther suddenly mentioned abt playin bridge. i then suggested that they come over my hse stay over night and we can play!.. wow i was quite surprise my mum agreed so easily and that the rest also can stay leh! wah so happy and excited..

en ar.. reach home the earliest cos she drop at simei, then was already on the way to my hse at 10 plus. i just finished bathin sia and haven't packed my room .. lolx.. had to chiong throw everything together, wipe the table, comb hair, wave to her dad and her... so busy.. lolx

soon we went to fetch esther and tricia arrived ard 12am.... tat en ar, v toot.. brought this ultra tiny mahjong! tiles so freakin small, like the diameter of a 10 cents coin.. when we tried to play, the stickers indicatin the numbers, or whatever u call that, came fallin off! wah.. so toot. had to arrange everythin in order, just to find out which tiles are missing. then used pen to draw out.. lolx.. en ar.. *bish bish*. there's also missing tiles, despite the fact that the box was fully filled! instead of two pple hvin 19 pairs of tiles and the other 2 hvin 18, we had to play with everybody hvin 18 pairs...

played two games only.. meanwhile everybody keep suanin and laughin at tat en.. trish was sayin luckily en brought the mahjong and play with us. if she had brought to chalet, sure alot of pple want to bish en.. lolx. the tiles so small had to bend down real low to see.. lol. en! go throw away that dumb mahjong set ar! $2.90 only.

then we started playin bridge.. play play.. then my bro went to slp. then we played tai dee.. ard 3am, my mum came and ask if we were hungry... but they say no.. lolx after awhile, we started to get hungry so we went to the kitchen. decided to cook two pkts of maggie mee and a can of campbell mush soup.. then hor, that esther ng yen yong, went to use the com leh! leavin the three of us cookin for our dinner cum supper.. lazy bum sia.. only know how to eat.. lolx.. trish was in charge of the mush soup cos she said she cooked gd soup. actually it's can ma.. everybody also can.. lolx. i cooked the mee... made the sauce... en chipped helped me...

and esther continues to use com while we sweat inside the kitchen! *bish* lolx.. when the mee was ready, trish still stirrin the mush soup.. she say must stir v long! lolx.. my maid so high maintenance lor.... got gameboy, mp3... still waste my gas sia.. stir and stir and stir.. while en and i started eatin mee... lolx think i gonna send her make to blangadesh le..

after eatin, we went to the bedroom to lie down... my bro evacuated himself and since my sis not at home, there were 3 beds, side by side, for 4 of us . played tai dee... and talked .. by the time 5am, we knocked out...

set alarm at 7.30am, cos had to meet andy ard 9am at tampines poly to get naruto comics. read his sms... then went back to slp! lolx.. then he called me at ard 8.20am.. woke me up.. then i faster got ready then went out of hse.. drizzlin sia.. had to bring umbrella.. then squeezed on bus with all the poly pple.... saw kaixiong... andy came, and brought 20 epi of naruto.. wah so heavy! then he passed me money to buy 4 more epi at kinokuniya...

reached home at 9.30, the 3 little pigs still slpin! trish was late.. supposed to meet meiyin 9. my fault that i didn't really got them to wake up when i left hse... had trish frantically packin and rushin out of hse.. so sorry hor!

had breakfast and left hse to work le.. workin at tampines and got shock when we saw it's the same tissue pkt... still rainin lor.. my bro and i got to work together! the ultimate team sia! in one hr, we finished like 2 box full! tampines is crazy! the pple are attracted to crowds... so when pple started hoverin ard our boxes gettin tissues, others behind followed.. they form queues too! power.. it's crazy! my bro and i were laughin cos we were overwhelmed.. orchard also not like tat..

then then, nic came leh! then he stand there look at my bro and i goofin ard.. so nice hor... haha stand quite long leh.. then he went home le.. haha lala... heehee.. haha.. =p

then hor, got this buffalo lady carryin a cold storage. she took alot alot of tissue lor! say wat take for children, for her elder bro, for her younger bro. hover ard lookin at tissue, and keep walkin pass to take lor.. kaoz.. gave u alot le ar...

went home to slp and slp. com got prob ar.. dunno wat's wrong w firewall.. can't use msn.. so sad!

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2:37 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Sunday, November 20, 2005

rmb i dreamt tat i missed my paper? and really did missed it? well, yest i dreamt i failed A levels. fail as in can't make it for uni.. dreamt that i got A for maths, the rest is D or E.... so add up not enuf to go uni.... dreamt tat one of my fren was gloatin in front of me abt how much she won her cca frens in term of points.... (can't say anything more or else it'll get obvious who tat person is) anw... it's freakin after wat happened in my previous dream.
aud says my dream is like my expectations of wat i think i'll get for As.... cos it's so real! obviously i aim for A in maths...... not as if i dreamt i get E for maths... scary...

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3:10 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Saturday, November 19, 2005

yest after chem p1, went to airport to study with esther.. our maids, tricia and hiang en respectively, came along too.. haha.. my maid, tricia, so rich... richer then me lor. play gameboy and got creative zen.. tsk tsk. nv save money to go back blangadesh to feed her family.. waste all this money... somemore straightened her hair lor... lucky maid ar! must be grateful to ur owner, me, hor...

had dinner at delifrance, after which we gathered at the toilet to witness en puttin on her contacts for the first time... she not bad ar... quite pro for first timer.. think i'll be stuck in the toilet for hrs if i'm wearin contacts... i scared i'll poke my eyeballs... haha... then esther and i continued to study while en tried to take out her contacts... then our maids so horrible, esp mine! bluff us that en couldn't take off her contacts... they came out of toilet after like 15mins, and en wasn't wearin her specs.. so we tot she gave up... actually she already took out... my dumb maid's idea to bluff us! cut ur pay then u know....

but we didn't study much la... how to study when we haven't see each other for quite some time? ended up goin to the viewin mall to talk... talked for like 2 hrs to 11 plus... it's great hvin frens whom u r comfortable talkin with.. esp face-to-face.. frens that u can talk abt anything under the sun and u know they can give gd advices and keep secrets.... =p

we are plannin to go night cyclin!!! weee! i'm so excited! had that tot for quite some time le, but nobody seems interested.... yeah yeah!! haha... but i don't hv a bike... sobs.. who to borrow from leh? my mum wouldn't allow me to buy one.. haha.. unless i work for it? dunno.. don't think possible anyway... sian....

teo! u all say go places we haven't been for a long time ma.. so i suggested botanical gardens ma... lol. can u all, esp u.............., be more appreciative towards our nature or not? tsk tsk... so not environmental friendly de.. go there picnic also fun ma... lol... =p

no regrets.

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10:10 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Thursday, November 17, 2005

i want to dye my hair! and highlight it! grr... still hv to wait... and my long-waited contacts! wah i am jealous of that en and trish..........finish exams liao everything also can do.... i want to get my hair done before i go off! hello, hello, anyone want to go with me??? but everybody also say no money or dunno want to dye or not........ sian... later when i come back everybody also go dye hair.. -.-"

tian ar! one more freakin week.....

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10:55 AM

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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

oh oh! i forgot! i must thank aud for savin my life. she really saved me! if she wasn't ard, i would be literally dead.. here's how it goes:

i tot yest's chem p2 was an afternoon paper! all along, i've been hvin tat thought. on sunday, i smsed aud, after which it was decided tat she will come my hse on monday. she was studyin econs, and i told her study finish can go slp, cos can study chem after econs paper. tat's when she told me i was wrong! then i went to check again...and realised i mixed up with chem p1.! oh my tian..... if i didn't sms her, if she didn't come over, then tat's it.. my future will be gone... and the scary part is, i dreamt on fri night, that i missed the afternoon paper, w/o realisin it until it's too late! freaky! i thank the heavens for watchin over me, and of cos, aud. i'll repay u!!!!

thanks aud. thanks aud. thanks aud. thanks aud. thanks aud. thanks aud. thanks aud.
thanks aud. thanks aud. thanks aud. thanks aud. thanks aud. thanks aud. thanks aud.
haha tired liao.... so .. thanks aud x an infinity times!!!

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4:49 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

this blogskin is a desperate measure cos my previous blogskin just wouldn't appear.... haha... so anyhow find one first.... dun wanna waste previous time to play maple.. haha. u think to study meh? must study abit first then can play though.. haha but i think it's quite nice though... i like the rain..

nxt mon and tues i'll be workin at tampines interchange givin out flyers (i think) . 3 hrs only from 11am - 2pm.. haha.. so i'll be rushin down after bio p3.. lol.. come find me and make my job easier!!! haha. don't worry abt me not studyin. haha i'll prob be playin maple anw... haha..

this is my cat! haha my maple story character's own cat! lol.. if u wonderin y i'm a guy inside, it's cos i'm using my bro's account, that's y the characters are males... haha.... had to pay... $8++ for this cat.. haha real money! not online money.. haha actually can name the cat, but still hv to pay more money, i'll just leave it as brown kitty. bought this kitty along w andy's mage character 2 months ago? haha.. and our cats are dyin cos their lifespan is only 90days! hv to pay some cash to revive this meow meow... wat a way to earn money.. evil sia....

my cat's lvl 10 le, and it gets stubborn n idiotic... haha... see for urself in the pic... i said 'loveyou' and that ungrateful cat said 'since when, meow?'. to think i spend online money (mesos) to buy pet food for him...... haha.

at least now he listens to me... lol... i asked him to poop and he did it obscenely in front of me.. did u see that small little poop just below him, above the 'i' and the 't' of the word 'kitty'? haha.. look at him! feelin so relieved to be able to shit... lol...

my character's job is an assasin! powerful hor! but high maintenance, i'm quite poor compared to other jobs at my lvl... haha throw stars at the monsters! 'phew phew!' and they die! haha.. lol....

i think i'm quite bored... haha...

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12:34 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Sunday, November 13, 2005

there's smth wrong w my blog. i dunno wat happened

i'm bored.
so bored.
tat's the prob when u hv a few days between papers.
argh!
lala
weather's so hot..
sleepy.
goin to disneyland for 12 full hours! cool!
anyone wants mickey or minnie mouse ears??
haha.
or daffy duck's beak?
hope can buy some nice stuffs.
hope the hotel has coms with internet access for use.
then i wouldn't be homesick? haha
stayin at stamford hk hotel near nu ren jie.
can shop for bra? haha
hungry now.
can't wait to look for a job.
but i'm afraid that when i come back from hk, more diff to find
anyone's siblings need tuition?
haha..
ok, i'm goin to do chem..
i hope
before tat, gonna eat a mini cornetto!
so small, eat also no fun.
one big gulp, and tat's it
wat a creation.
toink.

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4:43 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

i'm stunned.. stunned.... so stunned.

bio paper yest, come out cellulose!! like who the hell tests on cellulose, somemore one full qn !! this is not tat bad.... maths.. hexagonal pyramid?? the tangent n normal qn, the trigo qn tat requires double angle... these are the type of qns tat i nv see before! the major shock was today's chem paper 3..... they tested us on practical stuff!! spa like qn! argh!! wt r they thinkin??? 1st qn ask abt definitions of all the rate related stuff... stun.. the biochem part was out of the blue... more bio then chem i think....

seems like my degree of shock has increased with each paper.. hope tml wouldn't be tat bad.. *pray*... gov wanted the qns to be more thinkin and challengin and collaborated with cambrige in 2002 to set our paper... heard we were the guinea pigs... grr... do the chem five yr series also no use la! the phrasing of the qns also nth similiar to wat i see in tys... the kids takin A lvls nxt time quite sad liao... all the chim chim thinkin qns..

played maple for only a little while!! then had to stop playin cos they checkin server. so suay... inducin slp soon so can wake up and chiong maths!!! weee.... and gp? hmm..

3 papers down... how many to more to go? maths p2, gp 1 & 2, chem p2, chem p1, bio p3 and bio p1.. so tat's 7...... bio can dump it aside for the time being.... 24th nov- the day i tear my notes!!!

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2:00 PM

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Monday, November 07, 2005

wanted to blog yest but controlled myself.. but today must really blog!!! i've been hvin 2 dreams, one on sun and one today.. both during my short naps. yest's nap shorter, so obviously dream shorter.. haha today slpt more.

yest's dream:
i was with a teacher.. couldn't really see her face. then we went into lt 4 together. she called for all class reps to come down to see if the class registers need amendments.. since i was already down there, i took for my class.. then i went up. my class was at the top right corner.. and only esther and benny were left. i dunno y esther also in my class.. but apparently only the 3 of us hv our register number reflected wrongly on the paper... i was f15 instead of f8.. can't rmb theirs...

after changin i went down, and saw benny sittin beside esther lai in the right front row.. i just walk pass and hand in the paper... dunno y the teacher not there liao, so i found the file for my class and slot the stuff in...

then i dunno wat happen le. can't really rmb

today's dream:
(part1)
there's this competition btwn two contestants... like they hv to drink one big bottle of water, a can drink, write the alphabets out and do smth else (can't rmb). the girl contestant, she wrote the alphabets with her left hand, while usin her right hand to hold the bottle to drink.. she couldn't rmb the alphabets, and didn't wrote them in sequential order... could see her countin and tryin to rmb wat she had left out.. the guy contestant, did things more slowly, and was even shadin the alphabets that he wrote out.. my mum said he sure lose de... cos he's so slow... dunno wat's the result though...

dunno y suddenly i was takin part too... with a guy.... then with ronald? i think it's him. can't really rmb but i know tat guy v big size. i lost to that guy (ron?) cos i drink too slow... then we played another round... obviously i lose again... but so that the guy (ron?) can enter guisness records. then the guy had to go run in this park (dunno y runnin suddenly became part of the competition) before tat, we were walkin him to the start pt. then someone, i dunno y it's ronald again, picked up 2 needles.. then that guy (ron?) started runnin and fell, hittin his head on the concrete. he got 2 cuts... tat someone produced the needles and said ron's? cuts gotta be sewed up. ron? continued runnin, and after finishing, was shuttled by a bus, with esther lai.. to the hospital i think.

then at the hospital, dunno y aud and my mum appeared. my mum was at the counter, and turned to tell aud that smth was ex.. aud said she dun wanna do it cos of the money. but my mum went along and paid.. then the nurse produced a stack of papers, and called out e name of e receipent. but turned out the papers were for kai ming.. my mum doubled check it and confirmed it's for kai ming. i tried to call kai ming, but the numbers that i typed out were not his. i dunno y i couldn't rmb cos i know i've his hp no memorised. so i looked in my contact list for his no.. couldn't find his name under 'K' dunno y too... then i found his name saved as 'Ming don't worry'.. i was puzzled.. but called him anw.. but nobody ans.

suddenly the attention was shifted to my shoes. aud stepped on my shoe, and i told her my shoe is not for steppin. i was wearin this shoelace-less shoe, with a stripe at the side. and w the adidas logo at the front tip of the shoe. i told her my shoes' adidas.. and not many know abt it.. cos the logo is not obvious. then aud say ' gd wat.. cos nobody has the shoe'. (exactly like real life!)

dunno y, i'm with tricia now at my grandma's previous house. someone called me, the number is foreign, i immediately tot it was kai ming. i ansed the call, and even though i know it was kim heng, i asked if he was km... he told me he was outside of tricia's house... apparently tricia was sms-ing him and knows he's outside her hse. then i said i can't do anythin cos everything is up to tricia.

(part2)
the scene changed. and i am on the bus goin to sch... before tat i was talkin to mr lim yw. he told me i could find him in the general office. dunno y, it's his bdae and i'm goin to sch to give him his present. before tat, nic sms and said after seein my blog, he is worried if i'm ok.. cos my blog template is abt death.. then almost all black and stuff.. i also dunno y it's like tat.. then we were sms-ing after tat... i alighted at the stop nearest to the pasir ris interchange. the one where pple who take mrt to sch would walk to and take the buses there... then i found myself crossin the road towards mrt, and was standin at the divider.. think i couldn't cross the road in time.

then i saw nic, johnson and chin yi (i think) walkin from the opp bus stop... then i saw aud walkin towards me. i was thinkin in my head tat they know i pon sch le... aud said sorry to me for bein late. i was puzzled cos i didn't arrange to meet her in the first place.

anw, we board the bus, and in it was jun jie, diana and some others tat i know, but couldn't rmb who they are now.. jj said he wouldn't help me collect money from yong ann, cos i could do it myself. then i asked diana if yong ann was in her class. she said yes, and i asked her how i could chance upon yong ann in sch cos i hardly see him. she told me smth. couldn't rmb.

dunno y i didn't meet mr lim... then nic sms me to ask y aud had black rings underneath her eyes and y i had red eyes.. i was wonderin how he could see us from afar...

(conclusion)
both dreams, esther lai and aud appeared... argh wat's the meanin behind all these dreams!!! y am i dreamin abt pple i know... it's so vivid as if it really happened... and most of the times, i could hardly rmb my dreams.. but not this time round.. i actually rmbed my dreams so well!!!! some stuff really happened in real life, like the one abt the shoe. i hv this adidas shoe that is... not really seen ard on the streets.. i don't like it if it is stepped on.. and abt the money collecting thingy. i did ask jj to help me get $12 from yong ann to pay for chalet food.

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
7:15 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Thursday, November 03, 2005

been tryin to write smth since morning but argh! freakin sian.... anw today's evelyn's bdae! yup yup happy bdae eve!...

latest news: flight's ard 11am in the morn. i still dunno wat we doin in hk besides disneyland...

laggin behind in maths! last time used to chuck bio away and chiong maths and chem.. now it's the other way!! doin chem almost everyday , dunno y too... bio is 2nd.. and my maths has my least attention.... today tried doin maths..... so slow.. and so xian.... y like tat??? grrr....

come online so xian too... hardly anyone is online, and even if there are, they the ones i rarely talk to.. and i keep seein someone online! argh... want to talk to tat person, but always don't know wat to say... want to ignore that person's presence also cannot... when i really talk to him/her... tat's nth to say! feel like deleting tat contact.. but cannot.. tian ar!

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
5:57 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

"platonic close gd friends can exist. but very very rarely..... some pple just choose not to be together cos they enjoy each other's company so much, they don't want to ruin it with a potentially damaging bgr. with bgr comes a whole set of ridiculous expectations which is the gigantic source of conflicts. that's y girls can be gd frens for a long long time. but you don't see lesbians lasting for eternity. expectations ruin friendships......... once pple deal with expectations, they can last forever.

platonic friends is hard to exist! platonic friends only exists if they overcome interattractions and rejct each other openly. as you know, it takes a large amt of energy to do so and resist attractions btwn soul mates (macro molecular structure)"

quoted from eve.

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
11:48 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*