__________`` sometimes i wonder about you; * and wonder if you ever think about me. `` ____

`` its my lifee. [#] `-

Monday, August 29, 2005

F.B.I!

She's TryINg to KiSS me!!!! oH n o!

thREe StOoGeS

My PaNTs FrOM ZARA

My skIrt frOm PotPOuri

today is my last psyhiotherapy session! yeah! haha.. then my psyhiotherapist v evil.. make me cycle 10 mins.. with high resistance.. then insisted i do leg press with 42kg weight.. but only use one leg! after tat.. i gotta do tat stairmaster thingy.. like steppin up and down... 10 mins, resistance 10! she v evil... say she must ensure i'm perfectly fine before dischargin me.. i'm like dying liao.. she smiling away.. tsk tsk..

met eve and kez at 12... evelyn chong! we agreed to wear jeans and t-shirts! tsk tsk.. anw.. had fun shopping.. takin pics.. took 34 pics.. but mostly is kez takin her ownself.. haha.. tried alot of clothes.. we spent the day at wisma atria and taka! haha.. hmm.. so fun! but.. i actually spent $155 today! including food.. wah ... $99.80 for the skirt and top for the wedding.. both bought from 'potpouri' and another $39.90 for a pair of white pants that i've been searching for for so long from 'zara'. i've always tot i'll nv buy anythin from 'zara' cos it's like ex and not really my style.. haha i'm wrong..

i really spend alot of money ... haha.. gonna starve myself ..

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9:21 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Sunday, August 28, 2005

yest, ate subway with eve and kez... we were goin out on mon, which is tml cos i need to get some proper clothes for my cousin's wedding... anw.. kez took out paper and pen and started makin minutes! haha. so lame.. yet make u rmb the days of pw.. haha..

the prob abt stayin at home to study is tat when u r tired, u go slp.. and u slp, half a day is gone... u go out, u can't slp.. the most u just take a short nap.. but if u go out.. u spend money. today, i saved $3.80 for not buyin cafe latte from delifrance. ar.. but.. i slpt.. haha.. i really think i must go out and study, even if it means being alone..

tml morning i'll be goin for my psyhio.. i think i want to end it le la.. so i'll go and say i'm fine.. haha.. it's gettin... useless. ya.. haha waste time, waste money. then i'll meet kez and eve at orchard for shoppin.. haha

i'm a bad person

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7:56 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

went for the canoeing farewell bbq yest, which was held at dharma's hse... quite fun i guess.. spent alot time in the karoke room singing 'Michael Learns to Rock' songs.. this is the first time i ever dared to sing karoke.. everybody was like shoutin the songs, so can't hear myself .. haha.. but the karoke room is not sound proofed!

hmm.. mr lim's real gd at pool! haha phys teacher use all the calculation and stuff.. and i was part of the grp who played a prank on tricia! sorry tricia! it was also ting ting's bdae so we celebrated for her at like 11 plus... so late... mr lim sent boon, ben and me home... his dad's car is super chio!

reached home after 12am... bathed and studied till like almost 4am in the morning.. dun think it was productive, but at least still did smth instead of sleeping.. hmm.. yest, besides breakfast, i ate subway for lunch and some potato wedges for dinner.. i really think my stomach has strung.. didn't felt hungry at all!

dunno how i'm gonna get thru today.

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8:08 AM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Saturday, August 27, 2005

guess wat, i slpt for 12 hours straight! omg....

i felt so tired yest.. slpt on the mrt, slpt waiting for my turn, slpt waiting for lunch to be served.. slpt on the way to sch, slpt on the way to meet my fren, slpt on the way home.

after the check up, went to eat lunch with my parents at 11am.... before that, we tried the mooncakes tat were on sale at bugis... end up eatin half a mooncake. by then, i was v full.... i told my mum i didn't wanna eat so much, so she shouldn't order so much.. end up one big plate of hor fun, and 4 other dishes... wah piang.. i see liao i really no appetite... but still hv to eat cos it's my dad's bdae... watever my father put into my bowl, i had to eat... after awhile, i just couldn't take it and stopped.. after which i felt real horrible.. like my heart stuck in my throat... felt like vomittin too.. my parents, they just laughed and say i ate too much..

the badminton game was fun... shauna v pro sia... and i could use my left hand more fluently! yeah!

after the game, i went to meet my fren and ended up at home at 9.50pm... by then, i had a terrible headache. i wasn't hungry, even though i last ate at 11am... but i just ate a bowl of green bean soup and when to bed... 12hrs of slp! slpt through bio test... it's so not me to slp 12 hours straight

i think there's smth wrong with me. firstly, the sudden tiredness this wk. secondly, the sudden sharp pain i had. thirdlt, the lost of appetite even though i was v hungry b4 that. fourthly, headaches. oh my dad told me that i was coughing through last night, and it was real bad that my mum couldn't slp.

i just finished breakfast and i felt my stomach feeling weird.. it's just a nomal hamburger bread. ususally, after eating one, i will still feel hungry. but not today. and my head's feeling v tight.

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9:57 AM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.

And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I miss him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.

And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.

"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim,
Just to show that I remember him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.

Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.

A little morbid cos it was blew up a little, but yeah, i mean, if we never learn to keep in touch with people, we just lose them along the way. Let's get back to basics. "Roses are red, violets are blue, it's hard to find a friend like you." This little poem nonsense is often seen in our primary school autograph books. At some point in time i remembered feeling that this poem was stupid.
But now, come to think of it, it kinda makes more sense and meaning that the 12 year old me could have thought of.
Let's all learn to treasure people around us. let me not lose friends a second round in life. sigh.

(from benny's blog)

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10:26 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

today was the last straw. that's it.. not gonna tolerate anymore nonsense from u.

hmm.. wat a day... i've been startin to slp in class again.. dunno y.. at ard 4 plus.. i had sharp pains in my stomach! it can't be gastric cos i've been eatin.. i didn't take coffee on an empty stomach too! lasted for a few hours.. nearly died.. haha... but after tat.. i felt terribly hungry! but resisted eatin any food in case anything happen...

tml, i'm goin to sgh early in the morning to get my x-ray done and go for check up with the doc.. he put me through 3 mths of psyhio before askin me to do x-ray... my psyhiotherpist had said many times that mine was a structural prob.. so psyhio can't help much.. i also think so cos even though i don't have sharp pains in my knee tat often, i often felt sore... like old lady sia.. haiz.. oh well. i've sort of give up le...

after tat, i'll be goin back sch for maths tut... (if i can make it) then goin play badminton at elias cc with tricia, hiang en, keith and shauna... haha i v slack hor.. but it's the only way i can destress

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10:09 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

backed to sq one..

can anybody our age love somebody till the end of time?

shld i wake up, or continuin in my own little dream?

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11:54 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

went home after chem test.. ear pain... no infections so doc said if pain still there after medicine finish, then must go for check up again. he thinks it's due to prolong lack of proper slp.. the mess up part is, sittin with me in the doc's room was not my mum. it's my aunt.. where did my mum go? nobody knows cos nobody could find her... she refuse to use a hp.

took medicine and went to slp.. it's drizzling.. but i found myself at the airport

the 1st thing i realised, he has become fatter.
the 2nd thing i realised, he has side burns.
he didn't see me, i didn't recognise him.
one and a half years.
some things hasn't change, like the way he talks.
but the way he laughs,
it sounded so familar, yet so strange.
one and a half hours.
all the time we had till the next time we meet.
unspoken words still unsaid.

i guess the story wouldn't end yet.

anw.. i decided to go back to sch cos tricia will be lonely.. but it was too early to go back. so i went to pasir ris lib to see chin yi and yan ru.. that chin yi ar.. see me don't hv anything to say except talkin abt nic.. so idiotic.. haha.. i stayed there for awhile, then i went back to sch.. in my fav adidas shorts, atlas tee and slippers.. haha so slack..

just ate medicine.. waiting to get drowsy and slp..

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10:22 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

when you run one sec faster,
when you grow taller by one cm,
when someone smiles to you,
when you help someone,
when someone cares for you,
these are small things,
yet we overlook them.
but in fact, they make your day brighter.

one small 'sorry' can resolve conflicts,
yet we often find it hard to let go of our pride,
even though it's so simple to say 'sorry'.

one small 'hug' can translate unspoken words,
yet we never took the courage to hug the ones we love,
even though it's such a simple action.

when one cries, it doesn't mean that they are sad.
tears of joy. tears of anger. tears of pain.
when one don't cry, it doesn't always mean that they don't feel,
these are the pple who prefer to keep all emotions locked up,
cos you can't see the tears of the heart.
for those who cries,
they get their emotional support from others who noticed the tears.
but who can heal a griefin heart?

when you hv a dream, life's more meaningful that way.

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10:48 AM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Monday, August 22, 2005

a story,
once beautiful as the sunset,
now with dust on it's covers.
it's writers nv did gave it an ending,
there were no words suitable.
finally,
a conclusion may be made.
will it still hv the shine of it's initial years,
or just another story.

i can't wait to know if there's an ending

i don't care how and wat pple think of me... you can listen to all that gossip and rumours.. and even believe them.. tat's your problem. it really does show how much one knows me.

i trust my instincts

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10:28 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

i don't really think it's true.. but it seemed like it.. how can i overlooked all those signs... perhaps i was too confident.. but still.. as much i would like to accept it.. part of me still hv my doubts.. oh well.. i guess i'm wrong again.

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6:09 AM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Sunday, August 21, 2005

i got big patches of rashes on my back.. been there for a few days le but got worse.. itch killin me liao.. so ugly!

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10:30 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

i got a tigger soft toy! haha.. yeah!

haha pk say i m a devil.. haha i agree! haha..

my aunt pointed out that i only truely smile when i'm playin with my brother... i didn't realise that until she said it.. so true...

my grandma and aunt tot my bro was me.. they tried talkin to 'me' but 'i' didn't ans them.. they found it weird.. they didn't realise it until the maid pointed out tat the one lyin there was my bro.. not me.. i'm stunned.

Motivate me, I wanna get myself out of this bed
Captivate me, I want good thoughts inside of my head
If I fall down would you come around
And pick me right up off the ground

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9:21 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Saturday, August 20, 2005

there's smth wrong with my blog... my toolbar has disappeared! and i can't change the colour and font... sorry!!

didn't meet tricia today cos she too lazy to go out.. everything also lazy to do... lazy to RUN when we play badmninton... oh well... went to slp after tuition.. the best slp i ever had this week! when i woke up, i wondered if it was day or night. 7pm.. still saturday..

i'm goin to my grandma hse later and stay over there for the night... her hse is v conducive for studying.. at least i can get some peace.. will be leavin in the morn to meet teo.. haha..

i bought FOUR "Tom n Jerry" vcds from popular bookstore! yippee! wanted to buy long ago buy my mum said it was a waste of money.. so i told my aunt abt it cos she also like to watch.. haha she gave me $10 to buy 2 vcds! but i ended up buyin 4.. haha.. tonight i'll be watching the vcds with her and my bro.. haha.. so happy!

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7:52 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Friday, August 19, 2005

Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there.

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11:38 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

it's full moon.....

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10:45 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

woke up and went back to slp this morning.. ended up waking up at ard 6.20am. shit.. then sat on the sofa wondering if i shld just pon sch, cos i do things the way i do normally, i sure be late.. but dunno y i still go.. rushed thru everything, skipped breakfast and flew to sch.. i think today is kinda waste of time...

anw.. went to play badminton with tricia aka teo and hiang en at tampines sports hall. only 3 persons lor! some didn't want to come cos tml got chem mock paper 3.. others.. just.. duno wat to say la... but nvm la. quite fun...

at first, en and i played against teo. en, the evil woman, went all out to make teo run.. but that teo ar.. stuck there wouldn't run lor! tsk tsk.. play badminton also so lazy.. hai.. then it's my turn to solo.. that evil woman sure know how to make me run lor! wah piang.. but i pro la.. managed to get most of the hits despite running across court all the time.. heehee.. haha.. en's turn, we didn't really make her run la... we not so evil..

anw, we sat at the refreshments corner outside the gym.. it's quite a nice place to study! haha but teo said the light too dim she'll slp.. i suggested goin back to sch.. since it's only 4 plus.. haha we really went back cos teo said she'll go if keith and johnson stayed till 9pm. so we went home to bathe, and met at sch, dressed in sch tee and home shorts plus slippers! haha.. super slack..

study study study

maybe meetin teo tml to study.. sun too! haha she's so lucky to study with me 7 days a week! haha.. we're not goin to ask anybody along anymore i think.. haha

today's dinner is weird! there's 3 small bowls in front of me.. those normal rice bowl size.. in one bowl, there was a small portion of noodles. in another, some tapoica thingy. in the last bowl, were 3 dumplings. tat's my dinner! wah.. i'm not used to eatin Jap style, where u have many dishes, each of a small portion. but then there's only 3 dishes (including the noodles)... and i'm not full! oh.. there's red bean soup/paste for dessert.. haha toink

oh.. saw nic loiterin near the atrium durin econs lect! haha he said the lecture too boring le, didn't felt like going back.. haha.. i'm surprised! haha.. don't rmb seeing him goin toilet durin lectures before! haha.. pro

everybody! go get enough slp! and make sure u slp well, despite the few hrs.. take care!!

"the happiest of people don't necessary have the best of everything; they just makes the most of everything that comes along"

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10:07 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

i lost my calculator.. and i'm sad.. anyone see a casio calulator, model fx or fz m85 (smth like tat) with a taz plaster on it?? pls return to this devastated owner here...

went to my ah ma's house today.. she fell down two days ago... again.. haiz.. luckily not so bad.. she can walk now.. lala.. i think my aunt and my grandma were surprised went they saw me.. i saw my aunt double checkin the eye hole to make sure it's me before openin the door lor! haha.. me too long nv go there le.. every sat supposed to be there de.. but stayed at home..

anw.. stayed at my grandma house to do work.. then my parents came over... ended up watching superstar cos i nv her the blind guy sing before.. went home at 10... i carry the groceries until want to die cos they r v heavy plus the plastic bags' handles v pain.. haha. but i got my mum to buy me twister fries. saw rui hao (li hui's older bro) in the mac.. so i went in to say hi..

back home now and my evil twin just reached home..

sometimes i feel tat i don't even know u..

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10:38 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

today i brought my bro's bag to sch.. it's a back pack. haha so long nv carry such bags liao.. he took my orange bag to sch today cos he doesn't hv lessons so don't need a big bag.. when i was in sch, got pple say i look like sec sch girl! haha cool sia ! haha. then also got pple say my bro and i so close ar.. close until can exchange bags.. haha yup.. was v happy to hear tat.. we also exchange clothes too! haha..

today i also walked to the interchange in the morning with my dad and bro.. haha my bro actually waited for me to leave the hse.. but he nv tell me.. anw, when we were walkin to the interchange, bus 10 left! haha.. then .. then i saw bus 81 leaving.. started blamin my bro cos he walk so slow despite longer legs.. haha.. then he said he missed the bus cos of me! haha... stupid guy.. then i walked with them so tat i can take bus 39.. but i saw it leave again! my bro ar.. jinx sia! haha.. no la..

i dunno wat to blog leh.. so sian.. haha .. eh.. where's my momentum gone too???

anyone wants to join the panda-eyed club with me?

"You're not perfect,.... she's not perfect either. But the question is whether or not you're perfect for each other."

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10:14 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Sunday, August 14, 2005

pk said just now raining so he go slp.. at least he say sorry.. haha he said he too tired .. but he didn't even go gym... pig!

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6:47 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

supposed to be studyin with tricia and pk today.. but pk didn't turned up! at 1pm he asked me how long does bus 34 takes to reach changi airport, cos it's a new bus... then i sms him to ask if he knows how to go to delifrance... no reply.at 2pm, i was wonderin y he still haven't reach cos i assume he must hv left his house.. then i ask tricia to sms him. no reply. after awhile, tricia ask me to call him. i did.. no ans... then after another long while, i called him again, then tricia called him, then jerry called him.. no ans! jerry was sayin if he got some shortcomin then i gotta take care of him cos i ask him if he wants to go study de.. -.-"... i said he sure is sleepin de! maybe he decided to take a short nap before leavin his hse but didn't wake up...

now it's near 7. called him and sms him he also nv reply... and. he's online! wth.. confirm slpin lor since his msn is put as 'away'.. so idiotic. make us all get worried for nth... gonna stone him tml! must start pickin rocks and pebbles liao.. tat guy just sms me say he not comin! -.-" i nth to say liao...

prelims comin le..

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6:38 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Friday, August 12, 2005

oh yeah.. puntuality is v important ya? pple who hv the luxury of their parents sending them to sch can reach later then those who don't hv, makin them lose precious slp before goin sch.. ... old habits nv change i guess.. talk abt team...

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8:28 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

when two people don't have the same interests, the same thinking, it's kinda hard to maintain a nice lasting relationship... be it friendship, or bgr. it's not tat u guys don't hv anything to say to each other.. it's just finding a topic to start the conversation... cos there's no common topics..

the stronger the friendship, the more the small little things matter... they do ... no matter how insignificant they seemed..

dunno wat gotten to me.... don't know y i'm doin certain things and y i aren't doin some things.. feelin i'm drifting....

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6:42 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

today is my 5th time watching fireworks! and i'm happy tat i managed to see it this yr.. each experience was so diff! so beautiful!

the 1st time i watched fireworks:
it was the preview of ndp in the yr 2002, when i was sec3.. that yr, tms participated in the ndp. we had our own performance! i was the student helper.. preparin their food, collecting bottles and cans for recyling.. stuff like tat.. haha.. managed to get tickets from a fren.. it was fun! it was my first time at a ndp show.. haha.. the fireworks were brillant! luckily we got the gd seats.. perfect view! was dazzled.. haha.. since then, i longed to go watch ndp and totally in love with fireworks.. haha

the 2nd time i watched fireworks:
it was also in the yr 2002.... tms canoeing team was invited to dragon boat the lantern festival at chinese garden... i was on a 4 man boat! so cool.. it was my first time at chinese garden! haha and my first time on a 4 man boat! the boat was shaky .. kinda like those boats that u go rowin down the river.. haha.. to our right, were pple coming to celebrate the festival aka mooncake festival.. it was at night.. and our boats were lit with coloured bulbs! from far.. we were little floating ships or smth.. haha. suddenly as we rowed.. there were fireworks! they were lit at the bank to our left! tat was the closet i ever get to fireworks! stunned! cos we weren't told there would be fireworks.. haha. but soon .. we spend half a min coughin and tryin to breathe in all that smoke.. haha..

the 3rd and the 4th time i watched fireworks:
last yr, 2004.. there were a series of fireworks displays from diff countries every sat i think.. went for two of the four with a fren.. it was at esplanade! we actually went quite early to wait.. luckily we did tat cos it was flooded with pple! haha.. waited for few hrs just for a few mins show.. haha.. but worth it la..

the 5th time i watched fireworks:
today! haha at my hse tat field.. went with my parents and we just sat on the grass.. w/o a mat.. haha so many insects.. saw grasshoppers and crickets.. haha waited so long! haha the fireworks were nice (obviously) i had a clear view of it.. yeah!.. after it ended, we walked home.. halfway, we heard the sound of fireworks and saw tat there were more! i ran all the way back .. but the stupid trees so tall for wat.. hah blocked like half of it.. haha

can't wait for my 6th, 7th.. 100th time watching fireworks!

hmm was walkin to the lift at my house and saw my bro and his classmates there.. haha think his frens got shocked.. to see a clone of my bro. anw.. we got into the lift.. haha then when it reached our floor.. standin there was another classmate.. he shouted 'boo' or smth.. i was standin right in front of him! haha. he got surprised too.. haha.. then immediately, i heard a girl sayin tat i've the same eyes as my bro.. then .. i heard tat i'm the female version of my bro.. haha hello! u mean my bro is the male version of me.. haha..

they slacked at our place for awhile. then all of us went down to watch fireworks... they went to the mama shop.. haha then i shouted across the badminton to my bro.. was tellin him abt wat his fren said abt our eyes.. haha he was in denial.! as usual... i was going to tell him tat he was the male v of me.. then he ask me to shut up! tsk tsk.. tat bro.. when he come back.... i'm gonna tickle him! haha..

my bro shld just be honoured tat he looked like me lor.. better then him lookin like mr lim.. although he does look like him alot.. haha.. i've been thinkin of living in the hostel when i'm in uni.. cos i wanna get away from some family probs.. but then.. i will miss my bro.. ! if i stay in uni.. i will only be seeing him once a wk.. maybe less! then.. we will be more distanced. i don't want tat to happen cos my bro is the reason that i'm still sane in this family.. haha.. we would spend time just sittin on the sofa talkin abt wat happened in sch.. havin a gd laugh.. now i come home late, we seldom talk cos most of the time he would hv slpt.. such a pig.. haha..

when i'm bored at night.. and when he just went to bed.. i would go to ka jiao him.. cos his bed is just beside mine! haha would talked to him.. tickle him.. prevent him from slpin.. haha.. then he would always pretend tat he is angry.. but he's actin super lousy la.. haha.. i love pinchin his cheeks! he's gonna be accusing me if his cheeks ever sagged.. haha.. my bro is the best la! love him.. haha.. he's like 16 and don't act like one.. at least not at home and w. me ard.. haha

he's always blamin me for causing him to be wat he is today.. lame.. lame.. and.. funny.. haha.. oh well.. shld be honoured ya? haha. he's a nice guy.. we both play this game maplestory.. he would ask his frens to make frens w. me so tat they can help me fren.. so nice hor? haha.. my bro and i simply looked alike i guess.. haha. there's this photo of our family at the zoo last yr.. me and my bro were standin apart.. and we smiled the same way! our mouths were curved at the same angles.. our eyes too! wah piang... haha like photocopyin my face on his body! haha.. so amazin.. tot i lost the photo. but i just found it! haha.. oh.. me and my bro will do the same things or say the same things at the same time! it gets scary as it occurs quite often.. haha.. yeah.. we r twins 2 yrs apart.. haha :P

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9:09 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Sunday, August 07, 2005

high hopes raised,
to be dashed just like that.
why give me ephemeral happiness,
to take it away so suddenly.
so near, yet so far....
fate.. you just can't run away from it.

i'll be spending national day staring out of my window... at the sky

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6:14 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Saturday, August 06, 2005

Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night
Wrapped around your finger
Always in my mind
The days they went cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I'll make it through, and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know

All the doors are closing
I’m trying to move my head
And deep inside I wish it was me instead
My dreams are empty from the day
The day you slipped away

And I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I'll make it through, and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know

That since I lost you, I lost myself
I know I can’t fake it, there’s no one else

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I'll make it through, and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a dayyou'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
7:09 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Friday, August 05, 2005

what's ur prob? tuition teacher wants the money on the 4th day of lesson y make such a big fuss abt it and insist on payin on the 5th lesson? wth... u just know how to make me embarrass right? so don't blame me for makin u embarrass.. i come home early to end up in a quarrel over such trivial things... the teacher probably is used to collecting money on the 4th day, then u say she v money minded cos conventionally, pple pay after the 4th lesson.. wat's the link?? haiz.. i wouldn't come home early anymore.. even if i end early or wat.. no point.. i rather waste time then end up in a bad mood.. sian.. now i'm pissed..

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
5:16 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Beautiful dawn
Lights up the shore for me.
There is nothing else in the world,
I'd rather wake up and see (with you).

Beautiful dawn
I'm just chasing time again.
Thought I would die a lonely man, in endless night.

But now I'm high; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Beautiful dawn
Melt with the stars again.
Do you remember the day when my journey began?
Will you remember the end (of time)?

Beautiful dawn
You're just blowing my mind again.
Thought I was born to endless night, until you shine.

High; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Will you be my shoulder when I'm grey and older?
Promise me tomorrow starts with you,

Getting high; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me

High; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
4:52 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

do you remember our first hello? our first smile, under that cloudless sky?
it was neither too short or too long ago.
i don't remember the exact date, but i'm sure of the exact place.
then, i didn't think much of you.
and so we parted, the way friends do when they go to different schools.
but we didn't part that way,
we just went back to our own worlds.
living our lifes the way they were before we met.
yet, you kept our friendship alive by your occasional forwarded messages.
letting me know that i'm being remembered.
days turned into months,
months turned into years,
and you still keep this flame burning.
soon, we started having proper conversations the way that friends should.
how i wish i could meet up with you,
cos i've realised how much fun i've missed out.
but i know my little wish will never come through,
for we are of different worlds.
now, you mean alot to me.

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
9:16 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*