`` its my lifee. [#] `-
when u lose ur interest in smth, would u still put in ur time and effort for it? maybe some will, but i didn't..... i wonder wat makes me lose interest in smth tat i loved so passionately in the past...
yes. i've lost interest in canoeing. in sec sch, i used to be trnin everyday.. reaching sch at 6am to do gym. things like tat... i used to persuade pple to trn with me.. then, i was crazy over canoeing.. but now.. my interest in it hv faded away... so many things hv happened: there was some unsolved tension amongst the j2 tat gave me an enormous headache, when i go trnin i've to see pple's faces, my knee and my wrist tat gives me constant problems (i cannot run.. walking can serve as a problem to me now), i get more and more tired......... i am no longer motivated... i think the biggest influence is cos of my knee....... i can't do much abt it except to prevent it from getting worse.... tat's y my stamina sux to the core now.. and tat's y i get lousy results when i do water trning... and tat's y i get so irritated with myself (and my knee)
i've got this structural problem in my whole leg.. first, my knee cap is shifted from it's normal position, there's smth wrong with my menicus.. and my whole knee structure is cocked up... and tat's y i am bow legged to counteract the problems in my knee.. and tat's y i am slightly flat footed to counteract my bow leggedness... climbing stairs up and down is a problem.. walking for a period of time also is.. standing, sitting.. watever i do also got problem... there's always this soreness and weird tingling feeling... i just wish i can go for surgery immediately to cure all this nonsence instead of endless pyshiotherapy sessions..
when i want to run, or actually did.. i think of my future and wat will happen to my knee if i did...
it's not tat i dun wanna do those exercises..
[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
9:57 AM
alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*
*[[___ extras `-//*
I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break
And see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all
And throw them in my face
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If you chose to walk away
I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting
I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending
It's as much as I can take
And you're so independent
You just refuse to bend
So I keep bending till I break
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If you chose to walk away
I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting
I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you
Can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes
I've made along the way
But I always find a way
To keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say
To keep you right here waiting
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
We always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If I chose to walk away
Would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep me right here waiting
*[[____ blabbers (: `-//*