
__________`` sometimes i wonder about you; * and wonder if you ever think about me. `` _____*

`` its my lifee. [#] `-
as mentioned in a fren's blog, i dislike pple who act as if they know me.. even i do not know who am i... shall not elaborate furthur.. but i think family does play a large part of one's character... sometimes i wish for things to be different, but like wat my other fren said, there is no use wishing as things will nv change.. i guess it's true... sometimes i just wish i can get away from this misery eg earning a scholarship and get out of this country asap... or stay in a hostel forever... but to accomplish the former would be extreme hard work and sacrifice.... i'll miss some pple if i do, and i'll hurt some pple too.... staying in a hostel: at least i wouldn't hv to miss pple... but i'll still hurt some though... watever it is.. this misery of mine is gettin to much to take... can anyone out there end all this for me?? it's sad when u can't find someone to turn to.. to really empty ur heart out.. and u hv to keep all this rubbish inside ur heart.. but who will bother abt wat i would say?
they are so freaking superficial... maybe i've not been a gd fren myself too.. i think i'm quite an angry person... there is so many things i wanna say but i cannot due to circumstances... if i am ever frank, friendships will be strained.. i don't want that to happen as frens are all i hv.. maybe tat's y i can't take it no more..
y do i even bother to write all these? one day when i am gone... will anyone miss me?
still waiting for tat day to be free.. maybe then i'll get to know myself better.... then i'll be the real me..
thinkin and missing someone is just so hard.. it's even harder when u don't get to see tat someone.
[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
9:43 PM
alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*
*[[___ extras `-//*
I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break
And see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all
And throw them in my face
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If you chose to walk away
I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting
I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending
It's as much as I can take
And you're so independent
You just refuse to bend
So I keep bending till I break
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If you chose to walk away
I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting
I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you
Can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes
I've made along the way
But I always find a way
To keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say
To keep you right here waiting
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
We always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If I chose to walk away
Would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep me right here waiting
*[[____ blabbers (: `-//*