__________`` sometimes i wonder about you; * and wonder if you ever think about me. `` ____

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Friday, May 27, 2005

oh. forgot to mention. mrs crossley, our vp, was ms lela chem teacher durin sec 3 and 4.. her form teacher too. and ms lela say they still keep closely in contact and see each other during new yr. oh gosh. small world again

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11:28 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

chatted with ms seah until the wee hours! haha so fun... like talkin to fren like tat sia. haha
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woke up at ard 7.20am and received a msg from kim heng.. he asked me to call him.. toink.. so i called him.. then he pass the phone to li hui.. haha.. she ask if we want to play badminton before they come me house. i'm supposed to ask the rest.. then she say i speak too soft.. haha just woke up la.. voice still husky like tat.
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when back to slp again, haha holiday ma.. woke up at 9 plus.. kai ming messaged.. he ask if i still wanna go back tms or not.. cos he asked me yesterday to go back tms see teacher.. he was still in sch for gp tutorial.. in the end it was settled tat we are going back. met him at 10.45am and left tms at ard 1.30pm. haha stayed so long in tms sia..
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we walked thru every floor of tms. saw ms woon first.. she was busying instructing the students to clean up the place.. we forgot today's spring cleanin day! haha.. so fun.. love cleaning up the classrooms sia.. haha.. up the 2nd floor, passed joel's class and a girl threw a bucket of water out of the class. and it landed on kai ming's pants! water with all the dirt and dust. i had to help clean cos it's at the back of the pants.. haha luckily not tat dirty in the end.. saw ms morni.. toink... she talk like irrelevant stuff sia.. oh ! saw mr tan! haha our fav teacher ever! we finished our roaming and headed to the stuff room... saw mr yong!! the best A maths teacher ever sia.. he's quite old le yet look so young.. wear pants v high up and the butt and chest stick out de! haha and he's v lame.. we had fun talking to him ! love him alot.. haha. then i went to find ah chen. haha she make me walk ard sch to check the cleaniness of the sch.. i went to talk to the lady who tend the vegetarian stall. she still rmb me sia.. and we chatted mostly abt my bro.. ah chen ask me go into the hod room.. she carried on doing her work while i sat there blur blur sia, dunno how to get out too.. luckily some students called her out.. phew.. haha.. then me and km went to find ms lela.. walked her to the staff room and she asked us to eat lunch with her.. haha had lunch with lela and ms woon... really nice talking to them.. inspiring and motivatin.. didn't regret going back today!!!
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left sch and quickly head for home to hv a shower, before rushing out to meet tricia. the 2 of us and en were going orchard cos i wanted to buy slippers.. sigh.. didn't find any i liked sia.. oh.. there's so many mjc pple in orchard!!! omg.. it's like we are so deprived from life tat we need a holiday from ms lai so as to go out.. and many chose to came orchard. me and en walkin alon the street and i saw someone who look like ze hou in front of us, our junior.. en was thinkin tat way too.. i wanted to tell her abt it.. then suddenly the girl and the guy turned back.. omg! it's michelle and ze hou! stun.. then we turn back and got an even greater shock! a grp of j1 canoeists stood before me! we all were so surprised to see each other.. stun stun! haha after tat we pratically went to the same places.. haha small small world
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met with boon, esther, liling, clara, denise, pk, ron, jayanta, ben, tourm, jia qing at somerset mrt.. decided to go cartel to eat.. s204 pple sat the table nxt to us.. quite fun eating.. ms seah and bf came later to give boon a card and a flower.. and bought strawberry cake for her.. boon's really v happy.. haha i'm happy too.. our teacher so nice.. haha.
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went to kinokuniya after tat.. read paul coelho's 'the alchemist' till pg 30.. he's a really great author! his books inspires pple and r v heartwarming.. thx to trish and en's ex tuition teacher, kenneth who introduced paul coelho to me.. lala..
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my bro told me mr yong walked pass him when he was consulting ah chen and gave him a weird smile.. according to my bro, mr yong said smth abt me being lazy.. tat's y my bro's lazy.. but he told my bro that he was not as intelligent as me! muahaha.. funny sia.. then me bro say mr yong pointed at him and said 'lazy' in chinese in a v funny way. haha haha.. mr yong definitely make my day sia.. haha
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i wanna go watch ndp!!!!

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
10:36 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Thursday, May 26, 2005

SATURDAY:
trning shiong xia... runnin so many rounds up slopes and doing push ups... then i run so slow... didn't run the full 9 rounds cos must rest my knee..
celebrated trish's bdae at her house coffee shop.. ate zhi ca ( dunno how to say in eng). haha then she treat us bubble tea.. haha.. went her house after tat. lala.. haha to en: the 4 of us can go clubbing le! haha little kid.. muahaha..
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MONDAY:
did gym with trish and en.. the counter lady see trish's ezlink card then said 'today's the 23rd right? yesterday ur bdae? oh.. happy birthday to u. $2.50 pls'.. haha so funny sia.. poor trish.. haha. that en. still a xiao hai zi.. wear sec sch t shirt while we wore jc.. haha.. pk left before we started!!! stun sia. supposed to do with him.. dunno who late sia. hahaha.. after went airport to study.. tricia 18 liao still quite dumb leh.. keep saying sheddar cheese and shower cream instead of cheddar cheese and sour cream.. say so many many times lor!!! wah.. dumb dumb.. haha.. went to buy boon's prezzie after tat..
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TUESDAY:
end of spa! FOREVER !!! happy like anything sia.. haha.. ran on tread mill for 10 mins.. haha jia you jia you..
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WEDNESDAY:
adam's bdae!! eve, aud and i gave him a FIR cd.. i wrapped de! so nice right, adam? haha.. i hope this bdae is the most memorable one for him. :P
ran faster and better this time.. yeah.. the trning tat coach ask us to do caused most of us to hv breathing difficulties sia.. when we try to breath hard, we will end up coughing or feelin like coughing.. chest super tight.. horrible feeling sia...
mjc v vjc.. haha pro.. mj won sia.. actually is mj score 1st, then vj scored. then penalty draw.. then played until sudden death. mj won.. haha.. play until so late.. got aud as my life commentator.. but .. watever la... haha got fri off!!
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THURSDAY:
today.. haha. had the mjc leaders appreciation lunch.. quite lame leh.. the ccs made many dedications to their seniors and sang 'peng you'.... half way thru, suddenly a bunch of pple when to take more food.. cos ms lai left liao.. then they sing also quite off.. but the pple quite rude la... benny, john and i waited until almost 3 before leaving for mrs chong's lesson.. haha..
dunno why super tired today. can't even to my trning properly.. sigh.. went running with esther for 4 rounds.. think my stamina's starting to peak (hopefully)
tml going to buy slippers with en and trish at orchard.. then going to celebrate boon's bdae... haha so fun.. NO SCH!!
yawns.. my hols gone gone gone!! trning plus studies.. wah.. plus psyhio too.. some more gotta go sgh.. freaking far.. sigh.. oh well. haha

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
10:49 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Sunday, May 22, 2005

glucosamine sulfate... my fren for the nxt 1 mth..
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those little little feelings,
those little little thoughts,
those little little dreams,
and those little little hopes,
wondering freely and dangerously.
i shld have just kept them in my heart,
but i didn't.
now it's seemed too late to catch them back.
the movie clips of memories are playing,
endings uncertained.
if only.....

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
4:59 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

coach: ' why u don't go run'
me: 'my leg injured. doc said cannot run'
coach: 'u listen to that doc talk bullshit la. u r wasting ur 2 yrs effect'
me: 'but i run my leg will hurt'
coach: 'look at ur standard! 2 more mths, wat will u do to get there?'
me: (look down)

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my psyhiotherapist: ' i cannot be so cruel to say u can't run anymore. it's ur own decision'

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my world is spinning again.. how now? i'll be jogging on the treadmill from now on.. at least it's not taxing... gonna wait until my two checkups before deciding how to move on..

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wat's wrong with me?? been hving headaches and giddy spells recently.. wth...

[x] togetherr foreverr `-//*
9:15 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

this morn, a little sparrow flew into my kitchen.. flying ard restlessly in the toilet and the kitchen itself.. so i spent time just watching it fly.. when it left the toilet, i went in and saw bird shit..!! darn.. haha.. was hoping it would stay longer.. but it didn't.. oh well..

she'd done it.. i'm amazed..!

going for check up on thurs and fri.... toink... gonna ask the doc to end me agony fast.. tired of all the implications that hv surfaced.. darn sch.. say i take too many early leaves.. suspect me sia..

life's been pretty stagnant and repeative: wake up, want to pon but still go sch, stone in class cos nv do work, panic when more work comes, waiting for weekends, slping, trning, tryin to study, slp. and the cycle repeats. vicious cycle.

hate being wronged...

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10:05 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Saturday, May 14, 2005

Formula for success: 60% mental strength + 35% hard work + 5% luck

how true is this? haha i dunno...

i wish i can always live in my own little fairytale.. the real world is too harsh.

work hard
relax
believe
work harder

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11:15 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Thursday, May 12, 2005

red and yellow and green and pink.
purple and orange and blue....
i can sing a rainbow.
sing a rainbow.
sing a rainbow too.

toink... lala.. i think love's really a healing emotion.. without love, u will feel tat life has no meaning, tat there's nthing to look forward to everyday.. everyday is a dread... everything seems so awful... but when nourished with love, suddenly there are roses everyway. rainbows appear in skies tat were once grey.. life is beautiful now.. haha ya.. that's wat i think.. :P

anyway, i dunno y i bother so much abt others when they don't seemed to appreciate...

work hard work hard work hard work hard work hard work hard

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9:25 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Sunday, May 08, 2005

verdict:
i must be mindful of my little movements to minimise misunderstandings by the easily paranoid. i must keep cool...
i must forget everything and start afresh..
i must..

time and tide waits for no man, what are u waiting for?

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11:10 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Saturday, May 07, 2005

talking to kim heng now.. haha he say the tj hcl pple wants gathering in june! steamboat at my house then overnight mugging at my grannie's house.. haha i stun.

i miss my higher chinese (hcl) class in tms! y are pple so surprised tat hcl class still can be so close.. and they think hcl pple are nerdy cheena pple.. haha they so wrong!! my hcl class the best xia.. in terms of class spirit! in sec 3 to 4, the hcl pple from lower sec were spread out across the classes cos diff combi.. haha. we would grab our dictionaries and rushed to hcl class immediately when the bell rang. or our teacher, lao chen.. will minus points. we were divided into grps and there's this scoring system.. haha we would frantically raise our hands to ans qn to get pts. haha. then start to blame each other for slow human reaction time.. my teacher would say smth. then suddenly say 'ju shou!' haha.. then got this thing called bi ji ... the bi ji for each topic would be checked weekly by other grps for mistakes.. if got no mistake, then can get 50pts... 2 conseutive flawless bi ji will earn u 100 pts.. so everytime b4 bi ji checkin, the grp members will start to check each other's bi ji to minimise mistake. haha.. all these hard work for pts. haha

then we got spelling tests. where one word wrong, minus 5 pts. so it's possible for negative pts.. mine is still in lao chen's guisness record! negative 1000 plus pts! haha. the spellin tests will last for an hour. then i slp during test. haha. tring tired ma.. haha then she always call me 'si bei yan'

haha.. then we must bow to her 90 degrees when greeting.. then if u late.. gotta bow too.. then she always say we bow not low enuf. so we will purposely bow super low. haha.. somemore shirt/blouse must be tucked in..

chi not the most favourite subject .. haha but the class super fun. been together for 4 yrs. haha. and we hv annual chalet since sec4.. fun right?? haha... and sometimes will go out too for cny, christmas.. missed so many things of hcl tat i can't rmb at the moment..

lao chen let us drink alcohol b4 we turned 18! haha. she bought vodka to our chalet lor.. pro la..
missed her.. miss mq, li hui, kim, yan ling, even tat jun jie too.. haha can't wait to see them again.

hcl 2000~2004 rocks! frens forever!

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10:26 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

nv had a gd day since wed.. sickening headaches everyday... y is this happening?? can understand wat mr ng was feeling last time.... and he had to handle everything alone..

i must say i'm proud to be a temasekian.. it's a sch tat really shapes one's character. we hv tat sense of responsibility and positive attitude.. i'm glad i went to tms.. even one teacher said 'temasek has taught u all well'. thankful to the sch, thankful to mr ng who remained an inspiration to us..

yesterday was the sch's sports meet... and it rained... the first thing i thought was my asics shoe! haha scared it got in the rain sia.. haha... there were some really exciting races! haha. got milo truck too! the novelty race, which consists of 2 female teachers, 2 male teachers, 1 alumni, 2 students and the mascot.. 8 x 100m, with the mascot as the last runner.. miranda's mascot was a giant mouse! those constume thing. haha. looked so cute when 'it' ran! atlas's was a god? with a big globe.. and he carried the globe clumsily as he ran... phobos was a fiery bird.. haha he 'flew' to the finishing line... tot atlas will win.. miranda did. aiya!

we started it.. we shall end it gd

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9:01 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Friday, May 06, 2005

hmm.. these few days were bad... and i got so terribly tired and ended up with an even more terrible headache.. first time hving headache tat was so bad that i had to take panadol... oh well... sickening.. haven't do hw.. many many hw piling..

tml is sports meet.. aud is running! i made her wear my beautiful asics shoe to run! haha.. wah later dirty how sia.. but i'm nice la.. even gave her a can of red bull.. haha :P

goin out dinner with boon, esther, en and trish..! hmm, but got meetin first so they gotta wait for us... hope things goes well...

i'm tryin not to slp in class.. really tryin tryin... but still cannot.. i dunno wat to do... just can't help dozing off in class... sigh...

think i gotta keep everythin inside for now... can't be emotional no more..

nv liked politics... and i nv will!!

can u tell me how to be happy?

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12:01 AM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

Monday, May 02, 2005

haha in the end pk really came.. haha.. and that tricia overslept.. pk studied with 4 girls today!!! haha.. he must be so honoured.. haha :P

anyway, i think everyone of us are v v lucky.. even though we may hv some bad experiences or obstacles, we are still better off then many others... wherever u are, take a moment and look around u.. do u see old folks working?? be it sweep floor, carrying heavy stuff, cleaning... their faces all looked so haggard.. and they hv eyes tat are weary.. perhaps even sad.. old pple shld be staying at home, enjoying family love.. but wat are they doing slogging their already worn out bodies away? hv u ever wondered y are they working?? also, those pple who were born with a handicap or not given chance for education.. they hv to work work work just to earn tat miserable amt.. and chances are they do not hv family support to for make on.. hv u ever feel sorry for them?? rmb, whenever u think it's the end of the world, think abt those pple out there who had far less then u...

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9:15 PM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*

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got this from pk.. haha.. tat guy blog entries all v funny de ... talk abt pencil case?? er... i think he was bored.. but he was talkin to me how can be bored.. ??

goin simpang for breakfast in lest then an hour's time.. with boon, esther, en and pk?? haha.. that tricia.. dunno where she is .. either in lala land.. or.. running? haha doubt running la.. haha.. after breakfast going study. pk only got 1 bag, and it went to washing machine.. made me bring integration notes sia... now he just ask me to bring trigo notes.. soon he'll be askin me bring stationary for him liao..

anyway, hv not been catching up with work.. esp maths... missed alot of lessons le.. want to do tutorial also do so long for 1 qn.. shit.. so so sian.. how to catch up with all the work at this rate!!?? and mrs chong sounded so unwilling when i say i want to ask her to go through my tutorial and lect notes... and on the other hand she says the class nv go consult her de... i need many many days to catch up.. but every week work is accumulating at an increasing speed.. and i'll be missing more lessons... how how?? *bang my head on the wall*

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10:13 AM

alwayysbyyourrsiide`-//*